If I Ache…

If I ache next to your bed, believe me, it's nothing that you've said,

If I ache when I'm alone, trust me, it's everything you've done,

If I ache when I hear your song, it's because I can't believe you're gone,

If I ache over your old tattered shirt, I love you, it's just I'm still full of hurt.

With a room full of wanted clothes, wishing, that you could just walk through the door,

Sitting, staring at an empty wardrobe, reminiscing the walks in the park, wanting just one more,

The silence grows, but with the echo of your voice, that starts a tear,

As rivers flow, I'm drowning slowly my love, wanting you still here.

If I ache doing the dishes looking out the window, it's because I see your smile in that awful garden gnome,

If I ache reading the t.v. times, it's because I have the remote now and watching the t.v. on my own,

If I ache lying in bed, its because it's so cold without you,

If I ache every day, it's because I'm not ready for something new.

I wasn't expecting this kind of darkness to wash over me so soon,

I thought we had time, I thought I still had your voice,

You were the only one in my life, that made me feel I wouldn't lose,

I wish we were still young lovers, who lived with choice.

I'll give your bagged clothes to charity tomorrow,

For now, the story reads...

I sprinkle these ashes with the deepest of sorrow,

You were my first, I'll dream of you on my pillow,

Tears dripping, on the pages of your favourite book,

If I ache tonight, it's because I can't believe my love was took,

If I ache,

I ache...