Hello Me…

So,

Here it goes...

I've became somebody I don't know, with feelings of highs and feelings of low,

A continuous battle of blow after blow,

I try to shelter myself with the walls I build, but them quickly come and go,

I create a second body, who is so far from reality,

I've became a slave to his insanity and forgot about my obesity,

I'm drowning in a watery grave and my weight is the stone,

I torture myself, and this is my self harm beautifully done.

Do I have a personality disorder? I do once in a while ponder,

People see cracks in my life, everywhere I loosely wander,

My enormous heavy thoughts of ending life's wonder,

But then again, I wallow in self pity, just to feel sombre.

I second guess what people say, just to protect my own pain,

I suppress what I want to say, just to stay in human nature's game,

I'm lost to the people I love, because I don't show them my face,

I walk around in different shadows of my haunted day to day.

So,

Here I am...

The extraordinary

At being ordinary,

My face shows a million stories,

My lines are life of happiness and glory,

But my mind tells me I'm broken and deplorable,

Fragile,

Intense,

Lonely,

Depressed,

I write,

I fight,

I dream,

I scream,

I'm vile,

I'm mine,

I'll find,

I'll hide,

I'm Wayne Stubbs, do you know me?

Hello,

It's me,

Hello,

It's you,

Hello me...