Like a Child…

Like a Child...

Last night I cried like a child,

My hair's stood static,

Watching a performance, but thought of my daughter,

What an experience, listening to music with tears falling,

I wanted to hold onto that moment all night,

When it finished I hugged Rian so tight,

I am beautiful with my girls, they're my world, they make me look good,

As I sat, their youth flashed by, then in seconds began a flood,

Shailyn is up, she's got her plans, she's become a beautiful young woman that I'm so proud of,

Rian is growing up, she also has plans, nowhere close to home though, that's why I feel lost,

I felt that familiar feeling of sadness, I suppose I've been keeping it in,

When they go my heart will be homeless, the very thought of it makes me feel ill,

I have to remind myself to be positive,

I've got to stop dwelling on the negative,

I'm such a proud parent!

Is it silly that a man should cry?

Is it stupid that I talk about these feelings?

I do sometimes ask myself why;

But I need to control my insecure demons,

Last night I cried like a child,

My blue eyes, they could not hide,

Instead, down a rosie cheek, tears would slide,

However, I've still kept some to get me through life,

I ache that time won't stand still for selfish reasons,

I know I shouldn't, but love hurts too much,

How innocent do I look at my babies, although all grown up,

Do I look forward to a lonely life?

Do I find a way to live a different life?

I must,

I must!

I have to,

I have to learn to deal with them getting older,

I've prepared them for life,

"Shailyn and Rian, my beautiful soldiers"

"I've shared the world with you my angels, the world is yours to take now”,

"The strength you've showed to get through life so far, I'm so God damn proud!".

So,

Yes you're right,

Last night I cried like a child,

Even as a sit here talking to a special friend, tears trickle as I write,

As the unknown is on the horizon, my sacred angels fly among their own,

I hope I'm not just a once in a while visit when they spread their wings,

I hope I'm not going to grow old and not remember these shows,

My love is forever for my children, but what heartache being a parent brings.

Last night...

Yes, I cried like a child.